do you ever sit down to write a new post, and get stumped on what to say? very rarely do i come to my blog and know exactly what it is that i want to communicate, but rather i let my fingers start typing as my heart tumbles out in discordant run-on sentences.
its snowing outside. we're supposed to get 8 inches today. and if it weren't for the slushiness factor, i don't think i'd mind. it's pretty to walk in and somehow it makes you nostalgic (even though in texas we didn't grow up with snow.)
i feel like i have a thousand things running through my head-
when will i have time to spend with katie, charlotte, kat, jordone?
when will my car get fixed?
what type of flower do i want for the wedding favors?
what are my colors anyway? and when/where will i find a bridesmaid dress?
i really hope it will be good weather...
i really want a nap.
but a long one. that i wake up and feel refreshed from.
i wish that my coffee with katie could've lasted longer.
what am i doing for new years?
the pill or natural family planning and sheesh! i can't believe i have to deal with that now...
i really just want time with you, Jesus. i feel so random and emotional. i feel like i have no idea what i'm doing and i don't want to caught up in only ONE day, and one (yes huge, but one) aspect of my life right now. i don't want to miss home as much as i do. i don't want to be as busy as i am- i want to BE here, not just occupying space. i miss katie and kat and charlotte and jordone. i miss being involved, listening, knowing how they are. i miss my wednesdays with mandi and audi and christina, and though its only been a few weeks since we met i long for them. i am (annoyingly) a people person and when i don't have time or good time with people i feel stifled and irritable. i miss my sister, i wish were closer. i miss katie- i love her passion and want to be around to support her new endeavor. i love my nieces. ...i'm really just sad, God. i want to be in both places and can't.
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