July 15, 2006

crossroads and 18 wheelers

one month from today--even from the time right now i think-- i'll be 'leavin on a jet plane'.

last week autumn was home. i asked her if she thought it was a good thing that i was leaving and she said she didn't know. she couldn't tell if i was going for God-reasons or Erin-reasons. I've been working through this, and what's frustrating is that i know that i could convince myself either way. I'm never very convinced that what i'm doing is God's choice or mine, but you can't just stand in the middle of the road waiting for an answer... right? Maybe you can and i'm just impatient and fearful of being run over by semi trucks.

i guess we'll see. my ticket is non-refundable.

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