ha!

this is so random, but i'm really enjoying my new deodorant that came in the mail! its by degree, and it smells so good! even after a full day. that's the winner, folks.

crossroads and 18 wheelers

one month from today--even from the time right now i think-- i'll be 'leavin on a jet plane'.

last week autumn was home. i asked her if she thought it was a good thing that i was leaving and she said she didn't know. she couldn't tell if i was going for God-reasons or Erin-reasons. I've been working through this, and what's frustrating is that i know that i could convince myself either way. I'm never very convinced that what i'm doing is God's choice or mine, but you can't just stand in the middle of the road waiting for an answer... right? Maybe you can and i'm just impatient and fearful of being run over by semi trucks.

i guess we'll see. my ticket is non-refundable.

things only IKEA can do to you...

today was the first day i've cried about chicago, and i'm not even there yet. i was overwhelmed by the thought of commiting to a plane ticket, and picturing what is soon to be my apartment empty with the exeption of a mattress and guitar. i feel like my days are becoming a prelude to what they will be. Quiet, somewhat busy, quiet, lonely, quiet. maybe if i knew what i was heading towards it would be easier... but as it is i have no job, no apartment, no church, and three and a half friends (half= baby levi). You weren't kidding about a desert...